200 followers Q and A?

So I have ultimately decided that in celebration of my blog reaching 200 followers – which is insane – I’m going to be doing a Q and A!

I was considering doing a little “thank you letter” where I just thanked all the people that are in my life for everything they’ve done for me individually, writing short “letters” to them all and posting it on here. But I quickly realised that there was a huge problem with that idea. At the moment I don’t really know where this blog stands. Some people from my school know about this blog and some don’t. So I think it would be pretty weird if I wrote a thank you to someone that didn’t even know this blog existed, and I’d want to get permission to write about them, which means that I’d have to tell them all about this blog. Or I could write about someone and have a “codename” which would be weird and annoying as someone else I know could probably read it and easily figure out who I’m talking about anyway. So you see, as of right now, that idea would turn out a mess. Therefore, I have decided to keep that for another achievement.

Anyway, I still want to celebrate reaching 200 – now 207 – followers on here. Everyday I’m still surprised that anyone would want to follow this blog where I basically just ramble about things I like and things that happen to me.

Please leave your questions in the comments, and in a week I will write a post answering your questions.

talk later,

Indy xx

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beyond the surface book club

Gracie Chick started a campaign where she partnered people together and they created a project together to raise awareness for something they are passionate about. For a while now I have been working with Tiana from The Book Raven on a project that is hopefully going to raise awareness about mental health and how important it is. And as someone who strongly believes that mental health is as much of a priority as physical health I am very excited to be a part of this project.

Because I didn’t think there was much use in me explaining what the plan was for the book club, since Tiana’s post about it was pretty exact in everything you’d need to know from what posts we’d be doing to how to sign up I’ve decided to just give you guys her explanation of things.

(Also. Don’t forget to check out her blog and follow it for more updates and posts on our book club. She has a truly terrific blog and is probably one of the most dedicated bloggers I have ever come across.)

My instincts were all for creating a ya book club centered around mental health and mental health awareness as it is an issue that surrounds so many lives and is something that is far more common than is normally thought of. After ages of debating the name for this book club, Beyond The Surface was born and I’m so excited for this monthly book club to start up next month!

Without further ado here is our very first Beyond The Surface Book of the Month! 

My Heart and Other Black Holes by Jasmine Warga

Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner. 
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince. 

Book Club Posting Schedule for August: 

August 1st: general talk about the book of the month! 

August 8th: post related to the mental health issue discussed in the book of the month (fellow blogger participation is welcome!) 

August 15th: fun book related post (author may or may not be intertwined into this one)

August 30th: book of the month discussion post 

Finally, click this link to sign up to participate in this monthly book club! I look forward to reading along with everyone! 

Leaving the full link down below… just in case: 

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Thanks for reading! Let me know any suggestions that you have for any post ideas for the future. I hope for this club to grow exponentially over the months and I also hope that if you want to join and have anyone you know that you think should join to send them the sign-up link!

So that was Tiana’s excellent explanation and I hope you all go and sign up! I am very excited to start reading the My Heart And Other Black Holes! (It came in the mail today!) And I can’t wait for the end of month discussion!

talk later,

Indy xx

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monthly music – july

I have decided to start a new series on this blog that I will be calling “Monthly Music”. The idea isn’t very original, but I really do love music, and would love to share what I have been loving with you guys for each month.

This month I haven’t really discovered anything new, unless you want to count the Baby Driver Soundtrack as “new”. But I have been listening to a lot of songs that I used to listen to and have now come back to.

Egyptian Reggae – Baby Driver Soundtrack

Egyptian Reggae is a song that has no lyrics, yet I find it strangely appealing. I really like the beat and the complete sound of it, and I can understand how it made its way into the Baby Driver playlist.

Bongolia – Baby Driver Soundtrack

Another song from Baby Driver, that again has no lyrics. Honestly, I love this song because it just makes me really happy whenever I hear it. It’s like it reminds me of all the happy endings in every story ever written and I can’t help but be happy.

Chemical World – Baby Driver Soundtrack

Yes, this song actually has some lyrics. But, of course, my favourite part of the song is The Intermission where there are no lyrics. And I just had to include another song from Baby Driver! Its literally all I’ve been listening to since I watching the film. I was actually considering putting Bellbottoms into this playlist, but I thought it probably gets enough recognition considering its the song that inspired the movie.

We Don’t Believe What’s On TV – Twenty One Pilots

I honestly hadn’t been listening to Twenty One Pilots all that much recently, but after a conversation with a friend of mine, where we made a joke about the “yeah yeah yeah” part of the song, I had to listen to it. And so, it has made its way onto my monthly listens.

Sweater Weather – The Neighbourhood

I love this song so much, and really I love all of The Neighbourhood’s songs, but if I had to pick one to represent them best, this would be it. I don’t know why, but their music always reminds me of a dreary day in an urban area.

Cold Cold Cold – Cage The Elephant

I just had to choose something from Cage The Elephant’s Tell Me I’m Pretty album! And for some reason Cold Cold Cold seemed really appealing to me. Although Trouble is a pretty good song from that album too.

Take It Or Leave It – Cage The Elephant

Honestly the music video for this song makes it look like it is SO old, but its not. It’s Cage The Elephant’s album Melophabia. I don’t know what it is about this song, but I just love it, and I’ve always loved it, from the first time I heard it six months ago.

How To Fly – Sticky Fingers

This was one of the first songs I heard by Sticky Fingers and I really like it. Well, of course I would have had to, otherwise I probably wouldn’t have decided to try any of their other songs and I probably wouldn’t be talking about it right now. But, you get what I mean.

D is for Danger – Arctic Monkeys

This song is one of my favourite from their Favourite Worst Nightmare album, and I honestly just think its a really good song. (I’m really sucky about explaining why I like a song, but do we even know why we like certain songs most of the time?)

Slowtown – Twenty One Pilots

Slowtown reminds me so much of summer holidays when I was really young. (Actually the whole album gives me that vibe, but anyway.) And I like to listen to this song when I feel really overwhelmed and like life is moving way too fast. The song seems to ground me. And it annoys me so much that its not as well known as some of their other songs.

Happy Pills – Weathers

This song isn’t very well know, but its really good. This band honestly seems really promising. Weathers has only released two songs, although they have also released some snippets of other songs they are working on, and I am very excited because I just know whatever they’re going to release it going to be fantastic.

She Only Loves Me When I’m There – Ball Park Music

She Only Loves Me When I’m There is actually one of the first “rock” songs I think I ever liked. I just found it one day – about four years ago – and I loved it ever since. Which is why I decided to put it last, as a little throwback to what I would say was the first time I started discovering music for myself.

So there we have it! The songs that I have personally been loving for the month of July. Let me know what you’re favourite out of this list was, and what you have been loving this month!

talk later,

Indy xx

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i am fifteen – my birthday

Yep. My birthday happened. It was officially on the 18th of July but I’ve been kind of busy and I also finished this post, hit publish… and it deleted! Yay me. Anyway, I decided to celebrate my birthday on this blog I would share what I got.

What did I get?

I got these super cute socks from Dangerfield, and the brand is Princess Highway! I was actually there when my mum bought these for me and we got them on sale even though they were part of the new range!

I got this top – again from Dangerfield and the brand being Princess Highway! I’ve never owned one of these tops before, where it has the little detail around the collar! But I really love this and I think it’ll go great with the next item!

This is an overall skirt and I love the pattern on it so much! I love all the clothes Dangerfield supplies and would honestly buy all of them if I could!

This is a one piece swim suit that is perfect for the beach this summer! The pattern is so so pretty! I got this from the swim shop Carla and actually found it when I was waiting to get my hair cut so I had to put it on hold before I could come back with my parents to buy it!

I got given the Elizabeth Arden Ceramide Lift and Moisture Holiday Set without the bag, and instead with an eyeshadow.

Elizabeth Arden: Ceramide Capsules – Daily Youth Restoring Serum

Elizabeth Arden: Ceramide – Life and Firm Day Cream With Sunscreens

What it looks like on the inside? (Just incase you’re curious)

Elizabeth Arden: Ceramide – Purifying Cream Cleanser

Elizabeth Arden: SUPERSTART – Skin Renewal Booster

Elizabeth Arden: Eyeshadow

The inside?

A bookshelf from Officeworks!

I ordered some poetry books by Lang Leav from Book Depository! They’re all poetry books, except for the bottom one, which is actually her debut novel!

About Love and Misadventure: Beautifully illustrated and thoughtfully conceived, Love and Misadventure will take you on a rollercoaster ride through an ill-fated love affair – from the initial butterflies to the soaring heights – through to the devastating plunge. Lang Leav has an unnerving ability to see inside the hearts and minds of her readers. Her talent for translating complex emotions with astonishing simplicity has won her a cult following of devoted fans from all over the world.

About Lullabies: Set to a musical theme, love’s poetic journey in this new, original collection begins with a Duet and travels through Interlude and Finale with an Encore popular piece from the best-selling Love and Misadventure. Lang Leav’s evocative poetry speaks to the soul of anyone who is on this journey.

About The Universe of Us: Planets, stars, and constellations feature prominently in this beautiful, original poetry collection from Lang Leav. Inspired by the wonders of the universe, the best-selling poetess writes about love and loss, hope and hurt, being lost and found. Lang’s poetry encompasses the breath of emotions we all experience and evokes universal feelings with her skillfully crafted words.

About Memories: For fans of Lang Leav, this beautiful gift book is a must-have! Beloved pieces from Lullabies and Love and Misadventure are collected together in this illustrated treasury. In addition, 35 new poems that have not been published in any Lang Leav collection offer something new to discover. The author’s original art is presented in lovely four-coloured illustrations.

About Sad Girls: “Your first love isn’t the first person you give your heart to – it’s the first who breaks it.” Sad Girls is the much anticipated debut novel from international best-selling author Lang Leav. A beautifully written and emotionally charged coming of age story, where young love, dark secrets, and tragedy collide. School is almost out for Audrey, but the panic attacks are just beginning. Because Audrey told a lie and now her classmate, Ana, is dead. Just as her world begins to spin out of control, Audrey meets the enigmatic Rad – the boy who could turn it all around. But will their ill-timed romance drive her closer to the edge?

One of my best friends, Mia, gave me a gift card for Dymocks!

Another good friend of mine, Jade, gave me this really cute bag!

Jade also gave me this little bracelet.

talk later,

Indy xx

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the temptation to quit

Everyday, my mind goes through an endless cycle. It starts with me considering quitting this blog because its too much knowing that people from my school know about and have access to it. Then I start thinking about how I have to be stronger, and how if this brings me joy, I should keep going? And my mind flips between the two polar opposites constantly. Until just now.

But before I explain, I want to give a brief history and explanation to how this blog even came to be.

It started one afternoon, someday after Christmas and before New Years. I was extremely bored, and started thinking and became curious to see if there were any teen bloggers. And that is when I stumbled across Hideaway Girl’s blog. I read many of her posts before I decided to start my own site.

I originally made it with a wix site, but quickly discovered that it was very hard for people to find. And so I went back to Hideaway Girl’s blog, where I saw at the bottom that it was made through WordPress. Which led me to this site. And here I am.

After a while I told a few people about it. Some from my old school, and some from my current school.

When I first started, I posted a lot. Basically on a daily basis, about everything and anything. Recently, I haven’t been posting so much. I guess I’ve just made other priorities.

With the knowledge of people I know reading this, comes a whole new pressure. But I’ve discovered that people are going to make judgment on you no matter what you do. Whether I have this online presence or not.

Anyway, now for the part where I decided to not give a shit.

There is this website thing that is flying around the school. It’s essentially where you make an account and get the link, put it on your snapchat story and people can make anonymous comments on it. And you can see what they say.

I signed up for this, and originally all the comments were all nice and sweet. It disappeared from my story after the 24-hour mark, and the next day I decided to do it again, except this time I asked people to be honest.

And thats exactly what I got.

Again, most of the comments were quite sweet, and then there was one comment that stood out from the rest. Someone had said “walk properly”. And this hit somewhere deep inside me because I am well aware that I have a limp, and I have done everything I can for the last twelve years to make it as unnoticeable as possible.

As you can see I was hurt by this comment, and I messaged my friend, Danika, and told her about how it had upset me. She responded by saying that my walk is fine and that I should post it on my story and ask for them to respond so that I can explain. And thats what I planned on doing. But before I got to that I told her about how this one girl had screenshot my story twice now. And Danika told me that when people screenshot their comment, it still tells me they screenshot my story. Which led me to think that this person might have left the comment.

I ended up putting the post on my story where I ask for whoever sent the message to respond and didn’t get one. At least not from them. What I did get was quite a few messages from friends telling me that whoever said that was an asshole.

But what I learnt from this is the important thing here. I realised that that comment no longer mattered to me. And who said that was no longer important. Because what I realised is that people are going to have negative opinions of you no matter what. Whether I have this blog, or have no social media, people are still going to talk shit about you. And that comment started to sting a lot less as I realised all this. And I know that whoever said such comment knew nothing. And if they didn’t actually want to know WHY I have a limp, then they were just saying it to piss me off. And maybe, by posting this, I’m giving them the satisfaction of knowing it got to me, but I don’t see this post as being about that. I see this post as being about ME realising that comments like that don’t mean anything because they aren’t worth my time. Which sounds really cliché, but I feel like people really do need to remember that more.

Anyway, that is the really long explanation as to why I will be keeping this blog, and hopefully for a very long time. Because I have now learnt to look past the negative comments and opinions. And no one (unless you have a blog yourself) can know what it is like to be a part of this huge community. It’s like nothing I’ve ever known before. And thanks to everyone that has left me nice comments, whether that be here, on my Instagram, or even on that anonymous comment site.

talk later,

Indy xx

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baby driver

Talented getaway driver Baby (Ansel Elgort) relies on the beat of his personal soundtrack to be the best in the game. After meeting the woman (Lily James) of his dreams, he sees a chance to ditch his shady lifestyle and make a clean break. Coerced into working for a crime boss (Kevin Spacey), Baby must face the music as a doomed heist threatens his life, love and freedom.

I just got back from watching Baby Driver at the cinemas – after having to drag my family there – and I loved it! It is now one of my new favourite movies! It’s like an action movie, but with the vibes of a musical. Except there aren’t any stupid and random musical numbers that make you question the sanity of the producers.

It seems like a movie thats been done a million times over, and maybe it kind of is, but I feel like the soundtrack that is intertwined into the story makes up for that. Baby Driver has quickly jumped to my top 10 favourite movies, and with Ansel Elgort and Lily James starring in it, it can’t be anything but a great movie.

Baby and Debora meet in the diner where Debora works and they bond over their love for music and driving. They become closer as Baby searches for a way out of his job; things suddenly collide and he’s stuck. But when he’s behind the wheel… he’s never REALLY stuck.

I recommend this movie to anyone that loves music and action, especially when they are combined. I really wish I could go back and experience is all again, and I hope you make the decision to watch it at least once.

baby driver quote

talk later,

Indy xx

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geekerella by ashley poston – book review

Anything can happen once upon a con . . .

When geek girl Elle Wittimer sees a cosplay sponsored by the producers of Starfield, she has to enter. First prize is an invitation to the ExcelsiCon Cosplay Ball and a meet-and-greet with the actor slated to play Federation Prince Carmindor in the reboot. Elle’s been scraping together tips from her gig at the Magic Pumpkin food truck behind her step-mother’s back, and winning this contest could be her ticket out once and for all – not to mention a fangirl’s dream come true.

Teen actor Darien Freeman is less than thrilled about this year’s ExcelsiCon. He used to live for conventions, but now they’re nothing but jaw-aching photo sessions and awkward meet-and-greets. Playing Federation Prince Carmindor is all he’s ever wanted, but the diehard Starfield fandom has already dismissed him as just another heartthrob. As ExcelsiCon draws near, closet nerd Darien feels more and more like a fake – until he meets a girl who shows him otherwise.

Part romance, part love letter to nerd culture, and all totally adorbes, GEEKERELLA is a fairy tale for anyone who believes in the magic of fandom.

I mean, if anyone reads this book, it should be the bloggers on WordPress that love to read! Because Elle has her very known blog, where she fangirls and critiques every piece of news that comes out about Starfield. And did I mention that Elle has her own blog!

This book is told from two perspectives. Darien’s and Elle’s. And it usually switches between the two with every chapter. The storyline is pretty clear, as it follows the general storyline of Cinderella, and you definitely get those vibes from the book. But it also has the magic of Starfield and fandom woven into it!

I totally get why this book is being called “a love letter to nerd culture” even though I wouldn’t really say I’m super into the whole “nerd culture” myself. …it kind of just wasn’t how I was raised. (My parents don’t really like space movies, or super fantasy stuff, which means I honestly didn’t really know what Harry Potter or Star Wars were until I was twelve. I’d only really heard about them from other classmates, but assumed they couldn’t be that big, since I knew nothing about them.) But back to Geekerella! This book honestly just made me want to be a huge part of the Harry Potter fandom – mainly because thats the only “nerdy” series that I’ve seen. But still! I just craved this community where people come together and share their love for something that they all have in common!

Anyway, Geekerella was really fantastic. I almost read the entire book in two days. (And that is quite quick for me.) I loved the characters so much, and I really enjoyed the modern day spin on the old tale. Especially with the step-sisters. I truly do recommend this book, especially if you are in a bit of a reading slump, like I kind of was.

geekerella quote

talk later,

Indy xx

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picnics, drive-ins, and waffles

Honestly, I wrote half this post and realised that I just wasn’t passionate about writing it. But I still want to put something up about this day, so instead I’m going to do something different. I’m going to upload pictures and caption them with what is going on. Please let me know if you enjoy this formate more than my usual.

Saturday

Mia, Jade and I found this trail along the cliffs near the beach!

We had gelato at The Hood!

Sunday

We went to see some movies at the drive-in!

The place we went to see the movies at is Heddon Greta Drive-In

Hannah and Mia ready to watch movies!

Monday

We went to The Hood again and had waffles for breakfast!

We climbed some rocks and had a picnic with a view of the water!

Another amazing view of the water!

This photo was taken just before I slipped.

Josie and Hannah eating some more gelato!

Tuesday

On Tuesday I decided to clean out my top draw in my wardrobe!

I had a fantastic time over the course of these few days and I can’t wait for more times like this to come. Please let me know if you prefer these types of posts as opposed to my older ‘what I’m up to’ posts.

talk later,

Indy xx

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perversion of our youth

I was twelve

When a man

In a trade van

Cat-called me

On the street

Words long forgotten

Yet a memory stained

Forever on my brain

 

I was thirteen

When a man

In a P-plated car

Stopped next to me

And pulled out his genitals

Scarring my innocent mind

 

I was fourteen

When my figure

Started turning heads

When I walked down the street

Attracting unwanted attention from strangers

 

I was fourteen again

When a group of young adult men

Nineteen or so in age

Asked me to join them

On a wak in the dark

Even after I said

I’m only fourteen

 

We think that perversion

Is a trait of old men

But why then

In my experience

Has it always been those that are youthful

That have looked at me in ways that are sinful?

 

In ways that make you want to shiver in fear

To hide

When their gaze sweeps over you

As you can feel their mind undressing you

As they watch your movements

In their twisted perception

Of girls far younger than I should mention

 

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note to self by connor franta – book review

This is an open diary. This gives my insides a voice through visuals and poetry; this is me spilled out on paper.

If you don’t already know, Connor Franta is a youtuber. And I honestly used to watch him a lot, then I kind of stopped, and then I came across the trailer for his new book. And it was truly amazing and inspired me to go out and buy the book for myself. So thats what I did, and the book was no let down.

I loved every bit of the book. It’s kind of hard to describe the “plot” of this book, because it basically is just Connor writing down thoughts and feeling and taking photos and recording moments over the course of one year. And I loved it!

It doesn’t seem like something that would be found all that interesting, but I honesty couldn’t stop reading. And I think that was partly because it was such an easy read. I sped through it so fast, and I think it would be excellent for someone who wants to dig themselves out of a reading slump!

Another great thing about this book is that it inspired me so much. As you guys might have noticed, a lot of my personal posts are, well, deleted. A LOT of my posts are gone. And thats because I guess I just went through and started deleting a lot of them after I found out about people from my school knowing about this blog. Because some things were not meant to be read by my peers.. because.. thats just embarrassing! Anyway, what I’m trying to say is that now that I don’t post about personal issues, I’ve started writing them down, in a sort of poetry format, usually when I’m emotional. And it helps me clear my head and lets my emotions return to normal; stable. At first, I didn’t even mean to. But I’ve started creating a little book of my own poems. And I’ve even converted some of my old posts into poems, and it was so easy, because they were already half a poem. Just written in short, choppy sentences, instead of in verse.

Anyway, what I’m basically trying to say is that this is an excellent book, and is by far the best book that I have read by a youtuber. Having said that, I still have to read “This Modern Love” by Will Darbyshire and “Almost Adulting” by Arden Rose. But I will soon!

note to self quote

talk later,

Indy xx

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