I’m going back to school tomorrow…

I’ve had six weeks off and it makes me really happy to think that school isn’t my life. When school ends, I have bigger plans for myself. Not a lot of people can say that.

And, of course, I’m still excited for a new year. I get to do my electives – I chose Elective History and Visual Arts – and I get to hopefully make some new friends.

I don’t have much to say for school… except that I’m scared. I’m entering Year 9 now, but it won’t be that long until I’m entering Year 12.

Does it scare anyone else that the years move by so quickly?

I have a love hate relationship with school. Half the people there suck. Kids are petty and up themselves. The lessons… are okay. The friends are great. Half the teachers are awesome…. the other half need to learn how to teach.

Do you like school?

talk later,

Indy xx

sketchy fuckboys

This is probably going to be a long story so I would grab a big, steamy cup of tea, get a comfy seat, and relax. I’m also going to make it longer by trying to describe as many details as possible because I want to be a writer one day so…. practice?

Last week I was on holidays, and my family and I were staying in a cabin. It was a pretty nice cabin, right on the water, and close to a lot of stuff. I should also mention that here in Australia its summer, so we could swim in the river and stuff.

I’m pretty sure it was a Tuesday, and the sun had just set. It was quite warm this night, so I decided to listen to some music and just message my friends and waste time. I was standing, leaning on the railing; I don’t know why, but whenever I’m tense I can’t sit down, I have to stand.

I’d been standing on this deck for a while now, when a group of guys past…. and they were all looking at me. There were about five of them. I’m the world’s most awkward human being, so yeah.

I just remembered that it might also be relevant to mention that I’d seen these guys before, they’d walking through the park earlier that day, and I was sitting at the cabin, with my back to them and they must have said something or waved because after they walked past my little sister asked me if I knew them.

But back to the story… these guys were walking past the cabin and looking at me. I froze. I didn’t know what to do, so I kinda just stared back at them.

Then one of them, the blond one, calls out, “What’s your name?”

…And because I’m the most awkward human to ever walk this earth, I said, “Why do you ask?” Why??? I don’t know why I said that.

Then for some reason all five of the guys decided to come over to me. So, I’m up on a porch, and they were down below me. It made me feel safer, knowing that they couldn’t actually touch me or anything.

A different guy, he must have been the leader. I did later learn his name, but I have now forgotten. But anyway, so Leader comes up to me. And he says..

“High five?”

So I’m kinda confused but I agree, and then he also asks for a fist bump.

“You’re cool.” Is all he said about that. Then, and I swear this was practised or something. He holds onto my hand and looks up at me and just says, “You’re pretty.”

I don’t know how to respond to this so I guess I probably just looked at him for a second and then responded… “Thanks?”

Then, just like that, Leader and his friends leave. I don’t remember what they all looked like but what I do remember is that there was Leader, Blondie, Topless, and That Guy That Asked For Me To Add Him On Facebook. There was another guy but I don’t remember anything about him.

Lets move on to about half an hour later, nothing much has happened. I’m still listening to The Neighbourhood and texting my friends.

So these guys come back. They were clearly coming back from wherever they’d gone earlier.

And these guys are looking at me again. I try and ignore them. It’s kinda late by now, I’m guessing 10:00. And then, I don’t know who said it, but one of them asks, “What are you doing still out here?”

I don’t have a reason so I just say, “I like it out here?”

Then they ask me if I smoke which I responded with, “No?”

“Wanna come walk with us?” This came from Blondie.

“Ugh no,” is all I said in response to that question.

I don’t know if they noticed someone move inside or if they just wanted to know if I was on my own but Leader asks, “Who’s inside?”

“My sister.”

“Younger or older?”

“Younger. She’s eleven.”

“How old are you?”

“Fourteen,” there was no way I was going to lie about my age. That would get me into more trouble then it would help me.

The previous talking had been between me and Leader, but now all of the guys were like, “Fourteen?”

Then Leader says…. “I’m not even a minor. None of us are.”

Shit! These guys had to be at least eighteen! Thats four years older then me.

Then Topless says, “Hey. I’m sixteen.” Like that helps. *rolls eyes*

“Wanna come walk with us?”

Now I’m really puzzled. They know that I’m well underage and they still want me to come with them? Thats at least a bit sketchy. Like, what kind of sane guy wants a fourteen year old to hang out with them anyway? I mean, I was clearly too young for them.

So I said, “Ugh. That situation doesn’t look like it has good odds for me? Five guys and one girl?”

They continue to try and convince me to come with them for a while; and then Topless says, “Hold on, I need to see what she looks like.” Uh. I’m right here. I can here you?

Topless then turns on the torch feature on his phone.. and shines the light in my face.

Then that other guy that I mentioned before, tries to hand his phone to me and says, “Add me on Facebook.”

And you know, I’m kinda proud for how I responded… “Hahahah. I don’t have Facebook.” That’s right. I somehow had enough confidence to laugh?

I then hear Topless mutter, “Who doesn’t have Facebook..?”

The guy hold his phone out for a while longer until he realised that I’m not going to take it from him. And then they leave….

…. and that was my meeting with fuckboys.

talk later,

Indy xx

the cellar by natasha preston – book review


My stomach dropped as a tall, dark-haired man stepped into view. Had he been hiding between the trees?

“No. Sorry.” Gulping, I took a step back. “I’m not Lily.”

He shook his head, a satisfied grin on his face. “No. You are Lily.”

“I’m Summer. You have the wrong person.” You utter freak!

I could hear my pulse crashing in my ears. How stupid to give him my real name. He continued to stare at me, smiling. It made me feel sick.

“You are Lily,” he repeated.

Before I could blink, he threw his arms forward and grabbed me. I tried to shout, but he clasped his hand over my mouth, muffling my screams. My heart raced. I’m going to die.

For months Summer is trapped in a cellar with the man who took her – and three other girls: Rose, Poppy, and Violet. His perfect, pure flowers. His family. But flowers can’t survive long cut from the sun, and time is running out…

Okay. So I am so excited to write about this book! I just finished it yesterday and wow, just wow. I haven’t read many thrillers or mystery in my time but this book was so good.

Natasha Preston has that style of writing, kind of like Andrea Portes, where you feel so close to the character, because of their voice. And I loved the different perspectives, seeing how other people were reacting to Summer’s disappearance… and the mind behind the kidnapper!

I also think that having flashbacks to the past was not only interesting but helped shape the characters and show Summer and Lewis’s relationship. Without those flashbacks I wouldn’t have felt nearly as much for those characters.

Seeing into Colin’s/Clover’s mind was also really interesting and finding out why he did what he did and acted the way he had.

And those final chapters! I couldn’t stop reading!

Can we just talk about the ending for a moment? I don’t know how it could have ended any better. I didn’t see it coming (but I should have) that Poppy/Becca would be the one other girl to survive. I mean, it makes sense. But the whole book I was just thing about how Summer was going to escape with Violet. And I’m not at all surprise that Rose died. She was too far gone for a normal life anyway.

I also think that its so nice that Becca’s and Summer’s families are close now! After everything that those girls went through… I’m so glad they got found! And how close Lewis was when he was in Colin’s house!

The only thing that I’d change about this book this that I would have liked to see a bit more in Colin’s mind. Like, what happened when he was in the insane asylum thing? Was he really pulling a sheet over the doctor’s eyes or was he becoming less messed up?

talk later,

Indy xx

hick by andrea portes – book review

So… this is my third attempt at writing this review thing. It’s not really a review. I tried writing it with a review format and it just didn’t feel right so I apologise if this isn’t what you are looking for. I wrote a whole official review, but it accidentally deleted, so I gave up.

I likely won’t be saying much about this book because of the fact that this is my third time writing about it. I will say that Andrea Portes’ writing is the reason I am here writing about the book, because I love her writing, and that is the reason I will give any book she writes a try.

Hick was really good, especially considering it was her first novel. It’s about a girl named Luli, that after her father abandons her and her mother goes off with some other guy, she decides to go out on her own and hitchhike to Los Vegas. Let’s just say that a lot of stuff happens to Luli on this adventure.

This book is has a lot of themes that aren’t very openly talked about in today’s society. It brings up topics like violence, rape, pedophilia, and drugs. It was a fantastic novel and I would recommend it to anyone that enjoys teen books that have a little more substance.




talk later,

Indy xx

the neighbourhood

So….I absolutely love The Neighbourhood! They are one of my favourite bands and there’s just so much I want to say about them. I can’t type fast enough…

Let’s start with their music style. I mean… who doesn’t love Sweater Weather! Their style is something like Alternative Rock / Experimental Alternative. The band just has one of the most individual styles I’ve ever come across. And how fantastic are their albums “I Love You.” and “Wiped Out!”.

To be completely honest, I don’t know what it is about the band that makes me love it so much…

I’m sorry if I haven’t said enough about this band but I’m extremely busy…


Do you like The Neighbourhood??

talk later,

Indy xx

situational friends

I don’t know if I came up with the term “situational friends” on my own or if it was already a thing. But in my mind I came up with situation friends as a term to describe those people that you hang out with but only because the situation calls for it.

Let me try and give you an example. You know when you go on holidays and you meet people and them you spend time together. That is what I’d call a situational friend, and the reason being is that once you leave that holiday you don’t keep in touch.

You may exchange phone numbers or social media but chances are you aren’t going to actually message them, and thats because you don’t actually have anything in common. Sure, you shared a holiday, but other than that you don’t really know anything about them.

Have you ever met any situational friends?

talk later,

Indy xx

red dog: true blue

I’m just going to start off by saying that the only thing I really remember about Red Dog is that the dog died. I was recently up the coast on holidays and a lot happened, but lets save that for another day. Long story short, my family has a tradition of every year going to the same cinema at least once when we were up the coast. We started doing it as a Hobbit tradition because we’d watch the Hobbit every year…. but then the series ended and we had to move on.

We went to see Red Dog: True Blue because that is what my dad wanted to watch. Personally, I wasn’t very interested in the movie, because I would have preferred to watch something like “The Edge of Seventeen”.
Red Dog: True Blue was indeed a sad movie. That was to be expected. I personally didn’t cry, but some of the people I was with cried. For some reason movies just don’t make me cry. I know this is going to sound like I’m a psychopath, but I promise I’m not. Okay. Here it is. I laughed my way through “The Fault In Our Stars”…. please don’t attack me. I wasn’t laughing at the actual movie…. just at the people who were sobbing SO loud.

But anyway, back to the movie. I thought it was really good, and I love watching Australian and New Zealand movies. The accents just make it so much better to watch. And I did in fact enjoy Red Dog: True Blue. It was really sad but happy at the same time if that makes any sense.


talk later,

Indy xx



I have mentioned before that I love music; especially live music. I love Spotify because it provides so many different ways to find music that you’ll love!

The reason I’m talking about concerts is because I have been to three before in my life, and I think thats’s quite a lot for a fourteen-year-old.

I went to see a 360 concert, and a Hilltop Hoods concert in 2014! Oh, and I also got to see the Thundamentals when I went to see Hilltop Hoods. I also went to see Shawn Mendes in 2016!

The thing is that when I went to see these artists I was never truly passionate about their music. Like, sure, I’d heard some of their songs and I enjoyed their sound, but I was by no means a huge fan, and if I had to rank them I’d say that I liked the Thundamentals the most, then the Hilltop Hoods, 360, and last Shawn Mendes. I’m not saying that Shawn Mendes’ music is bad, it just isn’t my style. Although, neither is rap… if I hadn’t started using Spotify I may have never discovered what genres of music I really like, because the only reason I listened to rap was because that is what my older brother listened to.

Thanks to Spotify I now know that my favourite genre of music is Alternative Rock, and I know it can sound kinda crazy, but Alternative is just stuff like Twenty One Pilots, The Neighbourhood, (although, I don’t know if they are really Alternative, they could just be classic Rock), and other bands like The Wrecks, Weathers, and COIN.

In fact, I know I’ve mentioned this before, but I’m going to see Twenty One Pilots! In April! How incredible! And this is the first band that I have been super passionate about that I’m seeing in concert!

Anyway, just wanted to share that with you…

What genre of music do you listen to?

talk later,

Indy xx

a poem: my cement home

There’s a crack in the wall

Light streams in

The cement walls that surround me

Become brighter


I can see it

The world I was locked away from

The world I locked myself away from

Brighter than ever


The crack grows

The light pushes it’s way into every corner

There’s no where to go

Except outside


I take my first steps

The sun warms my skin

I’m free

I made it


I broke out of my own confines

Oh why did I lock myself up?

Why did I lock myself away from such a world?

Then I remember


The clouds cast a shadow on everything that was once bright

I forgot

The world is a dark place

The demons have come to greet me


I scurry back inside

And seal myself up

I’m better off in here

In my cement home




Weathers is such a good band! Again, they are an Alternative Rock band. And they are, again, fairly new to the music scene. I mean, they only have two songs out; granted these songs both have great music videos. Their two songs are called “Happy Pills” and “I Don’t Wanna Know”, and you should without a doubt check them out on Youtube.

Have you heard Weathers?? Which music video do you prefer, “Happy Pills” or “I Don’t Wanna Know”?

talk later,

Indy xx