a new era in a new place

I have just launched my new blog! I was going to wait, but I just couldn’t and I was really inspired to start with the beginning of spring. I won’t be operating on this blog for much longer. Maybe a week or so now that my new one has been launched!!

It’s called Indy’s Soliloquies, and I just published my first post. A new era!!

Everyone please go and follow and like, and tell me what you think of the new blog style. Thank you so much to every one that has helped me on my journey in the blogosphere so far.

I have so much love for all you guys.

See you soon,

Indy xx

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absence

Some of you may have noticed my sudden absence on this blog, and to tell you the truth I don’t really know whats happened. I’ve just been really busy and distracted and haven’t had time to focus on this blog.

But on my mini, random, unannounced hiatus I have realised something.

I love blogging. So so much. Its one of the things that makes me truly happy and I honestly just want to continue blogging forever.

Which means… I want to make a career out of it someday. Well, not exactly a career, more like a thing I do on the side. And even if blogging doesn’t work out it doesn’t matter because I still want to be a journalist or a novelist or something to do with writing things.

And so, I’ve decided that coming soon, I will be launching a new blog. There won’t be too much difference in it, except that I want to do some more fashion related posts. And helpful tips posts. And lists! About my favourite music and books and movies and things that just make me happy.

And I want to continue series’s as well! I will be continuing The Indy Chronicle and Monthly Music.

But I really want to focus on the aesthetic of my blog.

AND I want to work on advice and tips. I’m done ranting about my own little life, I want to instead help you guys. I want it to be more professional. More ME.

It probably sounds a bit sudden and drastic. Wanting to make a new blog. But I really feel like this is the right decision. I haven’t been all to satisfied with my blog lately and I realised that what was missing was my own original spark.

I also want my blog to be something that I’m unapologetic about and am proud of. I want to be able to put its link in my personal instagram and to not feel uncomfortable when people bring it up, and to simply love it like it wasn’t a dirty little secret.

And it’s not like my blog now is a “dirty little secret”. The issue was just that I overshared on here, and then people from my school found it and they knew it was me, and that was terrifying.

And so, in some time, on here I will be announcing the launch of my new blog!!

Although, it might be awhile, because right now I have five assignments to work on!

Anyway, please don’t unfollow this blog until I have announced my new one, where I will leave a link so that you can go follow it.

I’l talk to you guys soon (hopefully in a week! two weeks at most!)

Indy xx

the perfectly imperfect tag

What kind of blogger am I? I’ve forgotten all about It’s Simply Me, Jasmine tagging me in this! (I am so sorry, Jasmine.) I can’t believe that I forgot all about this tag! I guess the only way to redeem myself now, is to do it! Hahahah.

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This tag has been created by Aqsa Says What?, and I actually hadn’t heard of her blog before, but being tagged for it now, I went to read what she said about creating the tag and it was for the sweetest reason. Aqsa said that this tag is all about excepting your flaws and lifting yourself up so that you can see that you’re flaws are what really makes you perfect.

And thank you so much Jasmine (It’s Simply Me, Jasmine) for tagging me to do this! (I still feel so bad about forgetting about this.) Everyone should definitely go check out her blog as she is really inspiring, funny, and her posts always make me smile!

The Rules…

  • Copy/paste the image of the tag in your post.
  • Make sure to share a little blurb about the creator of the tag.
  • Give a shoutout to the person who nominated you.
  • Talk about what your strengths are, and what you love about yourself. These can range from anything positive about you, or your future aspirations and goals.
  • Who/what are you inspired by, and how do you want to make a difference?
  • What’s your advice to those that struggle to love themselves, and to those that doubt themselves?
  • Lastly, nominate as many bloggers as you would like (ranging from 1 to whichever amount you choose) and let them know that you nominated them.

The Questions…

Talk about what your strengths are, and what you love about yourself. These can range from anything positive about you, or your future aspirations and goals.

I’d say that my biggest strength – that I’ve developed quite recently – is my ability to not really care about what other people think of me. (I’m still working on this, of course.) Because people from my school have found out about my blog I had to make a decision: quit or keep going. And I came so close to quitting – I even took all my post down and wrote a goodbye post – but then the next day I realised something. I realised that I cared so much about what my peers thought of me that I was willing to leave the one thing that was a constant source of happiness in the past. And so, I decided to keep blogging and to not care what others though. And so far so good. Except I still haven’t conquered talking about it out loud, simply because for the longest time this blog has just been something online – it’s just text. So when people at school try to bring it up I kind of shut down.

My next biggest strength would be that I always TRY to be healthy. I’m not exactly really healthy or fit or whatever, but I TRY. I never just give up. I have my downfalls, like everyone. But I always tell myself that I can do better. When it comes to my diet, I try and eat as healthy as possible, but I also find myself constantly making exceptions to the rule. For instance, I’m trying to not eat as much sugary things but I let myself off because I just got braces on which limits my diet as I couldn’t chew and right now I still can’t bite into anything with my front teeth. BUT I’m always TRYING.

And my last biggest strength – which is also fairly new – is that even though I’m pretty sure I’m prone to being a negative person I always try and look at the bright side and try to be as happy as possible. I have quickly learned that always being unhappy and unsatisfied can take a huge toll on you and takes away from your overall value of life.

Who/what are you inspired by, and how do you want to make a difference?

I’m really inspired by Elm (Just Call Me Elm Or Something) as she often posts very honest content about herself and her experiences, and it always inspires me to do the same. But also, I’m inspired by all her posts about mental health. It’s such an important part of our world and it isn’t talked about enough, yet she talks about her mental health issues openly on her blog while also seeking professional help.

I’m actually working to make a difference right now, as I’ve just launched a book club – with Tiana (The Book Raven) –  called Beyond the Surface, where we specifically pick out books about mental health and discuss and review them.

What’s your advice to those that struggle to love themselves, and those that struggle to doubt themselves?

I could say some cheesy thing about how you’re worth it and that you just need to remember that you are loved and all that, and while that stuff works, I find that it often wears off way too soon.

So instead, here is a bit of advice that I have picked up. If you find yourself picking out physical or mental parts of yourself that you despise and want to change… every time you do that I want you to catch yourself and change your state of mind, and pick out five or more things that you love about yourself, whether that be your hair, your smile, your intelligence. Something that makes you feel strong and in control.

And if you doubt yourself, which is a slightly different issue to struggling to love yourself, I want you to think of this. When you’re running, your mind thinks that you can’t go any further, that its time to give up; but you’re body can keep going as long as it continues to ignore what the mind tells it. And you can do the same. Even if you tell yourself you can’t do something – that you’re not capable – just remember that you’re capable of so much more than you think. You just have to push past what your mind tells you.

My Nominations…

IndieSongLyrics

Life of a Teenage Ranter

LIFE IN A BLOGSHELL

So that’s it! I’ve FINALLY completely The Perfectly Imperfect Tag! I hope you all enjoyed and if you want to do this tag, and I didn’t tag you feel free to just do it anyway!

talk later,

Indy xx

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harry potter and the philosopher’s stone – movie review

Adaptation of the first of J. K. Rowling’s popular children novels about Harry Potter, a boy who learns on his eleventh birthday that he is the orphaned son of two powerful wizards and possesses unique magical powers of his own. He is summoned from his life as an unwanted child to become a student at Hogwarts, an English boarding  school for wizards. There, he meets several friends who become his closest allies and help him discover the truth about his parents’ mysterious deaths.

I have seen this movie before, but not for a very long time, and I wasn’t really sure what to expect watching it now. Would it be entertaining? Boring? Childish? Only watching it once more would tell me if my older self enjoyed the movie just the same.

And I loved the movie! I’d explain the plot but, I mean, most people would know the general gist of it anyway.

I was surprised that I enjoyed it as much as I did. Truth be told, I did have quite low expectations when deciding to watch it. And that just made the movie seem all that much better! Whether that’s a good or bad thing? I’m not too sure.

Anyway, I’ve actually seen all the Harry Potter movies, but like I said before, not for a very long time! And now that I’m reading the book series, I thought I would watch each movie after finishing the book it is based off of!

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talk later,

Indy xx

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the indy chronicle #1

A new series! Inspired by It’s Simply Me, Jasmine, I have decided that instead of writing occasional posts about my day, I would make updates every now and then about what is going on in my life! I’ve been thinking about doing something like this for a while, and have finally decided to go ahead with it!

Also, I find that posts about what is happening in people’s lives really interesting and intriguing, and I also find them really fun to write. So I hope you guys feel the same!

Skipping class (not really)

The last few days at school haven’t really felt very school like because almost half of our year are on a trip to the snow. I had a double for art and we were allowed to go for a walk in between the double. I decided to go to the top of the school, and ended up laying on the grass with Hannah and another friend.

About ten minutes passed, I saw another person from my class was up there too, so I decided that when they head back that I would too. So that if we get in trouble it won’t be me alone. Anyway, another ten or fifteen minutes passed and then I suddenly noticed that they were gone and I was over twenty minutes late.

I told my friends I should probably go back to class and headed back down to the bottom of the school. I hurried to my class, fingers crossed that I wouldn’t get in much trouble… and when I walked in? The teacher looked up and then just said “hey” and went back to doing whatever he was doing.

Destroying classrooms (again, not really)

I was in PE, and because of the snow trip there weren’t many people there, so the teacher told us that we were going to go out and do practical with some other classes. I was sitting with a friend of mine up the back, and we were the last ones out of the classroom when the teacher asked us to stay back and clean up. Knowing that cleaning up gets us out of PE – at least for a while – we agreed. She gave us the key and told us to lock up when we were done.

The only thing really to do was push some chairs in and tidy the desks. So we took our time. One chair was sitting way out and my friend walked up to it and kicked the chair… and it went flying up into the air and landed a few feet away. We burst out laughing like maniacs and then fixed the chair.

Then we decided to fix some other chairs as well, and tried to make everything as tidied as possible – to waste time, of course. When we were finished and there was nothing left to do we decided to lock up and join the others.

When we arrived it was clear that this was a “do whatever you want” type PE lesson, and so we ended up just walking around the school for the rest of our PE time.

Perfect Places Music Video

I just saw the Perfect Places music video and I love it so much, everything about it is amazing. The locations, Lorde’s singing, Lorde’s dancing, Lorde’s outfits. Everything. It was so good, and I liked the song, but now with the music video out I can’t help but love the song.

Atomic Blonde

I went to see Atomic Blonde one night with my family and it was okay. It was kind of boring. It was okay but I became bored and wanted to check the time on my phone at least five times, and towards the end I was kind of just begging for them to rap it up already.

Parkrun

I did parkrun this week, just like I do every week with Jade, Mia, and Hannah. We run five kilometres, and it honesty felt a lot harder than it usually does, which is a bad sign because next week I’m running 14 kilometres for the City2Surf. Also, I ran it in 31 minutes!

Waffles for breakfast

Hannah, Jade, Mia and I decided to go to The Hood Milk Bar for some breakfast after our 5k run, and Jade and I both ordered waffles with fruit and ice cream! Yum! I ordered mine with Peanut Butter ice cream, and Jade ordered hers with Nutella ice cream! And Hannah got an iced chocolate, and a gourmet doughnut from Doughheads!

Watching a play

At the last minute, my friends and I decided to all go to see this play that some of my other friends were in (they were part of the orchestra). And when I say at the last minute, I’m serious. We decided that day to go.. and it was the last day that it was showing. The play was really good and enjoyable.

Sleepovers

After the play, some of my friends came back to my house and slept over. We probably went to sleep at around 2am, and we were pretty tired by then. I woke up at 7am six hours later too so after that I was even more tired.

Braces

Yep. I got braces. I was honestly really scared to get them on because lots of people were saying that it really aches and you can’t eat anything but soup for days. And maybe that’s true for some people. But luckily for me it doesn’t ache at all. And it’s been two days since I got them on and I can already chew again, except I can’t really bite down with my front teeth just yet.

City2Surf Training

I’m completing the City2Surf this weekend in Sydney with my friend Jade. And so, we decided on Monday afternoon to go for a run to see how far we can go, because the City2Surf is a 14k run.

Long story short, we weren’t that productive when it came to training… but we did take some amazing photos as we were running along the beach! (My header photo is actually one that we took on our run!)

Me attempting to get some “model” shots for instagram.

An excursion to the Sydney Opera House (and sleeping through Macbeth)

I went on an excursion with some friends to Sydney to see MacBeth. It was for year 10s, but since there were still spots left, it was open to year 9s that were in the top class, and so, being in that class, I decided to go.

It was pretty fun on the trip there. I mainly just listened to music and talked with some friends. Then, when we arrived we had a little under an hour to do what we wanted before the play started, so we went and bought food. I ended up getting a hot chocolate,  and then later a salted caramel ice cream.

Me (on the far left) and some friends with our ice cream! (I put hearts over our school logo because no one needs to see that hahah.)

Then, when the play was going, I started to get kind of confused as to what was going on because I hadn’t actually read the play (but our teacher had explained to us the basic plot line) I became really bored.. and actually feel asleep. Multiple times. I kept getting woken up every time an actor made a loud noise or shouted and then I’d just fall asleep again.

I figured out later that I must have just been really exhausted in general because when I got home I changed into my pjs and got into bed to watch some Netflix (even though it was only 8pm) and ended up falling straight asleep.

A day off

After my busy weekend, braces, and then an excursion… my mum (surprisingly) let me take a day off just to recover. A much needed break that is. I mainly just lay around watching YouTube all morning, but by 10am I decided to have a shower and actually do something.

Thursday Night Shopping

On Thursday afternoon, I went with my mum to the shops because she had an appointment and we decided to go get some food and look around beforehand. For dinner we had Nandos, and then after I walked around with my mum while she we waited for her appointment.

Later, I went and looked around some book stores, browsing the shelves. I had to resist the urge to purchase anything though as this weekend I’m going down to Sydney with Jade for the City2Surf.

After I grew bored of looking at books I couldn’t buy, I decided to sit down and read the book I had brought with me; My Heart And Other Black Holes. It’s really good so far, although I’m only 70 pages in.

talk later,

Indy xx

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beyond the surface book club: a talk about suicide and depression

*trigger warning* – this post will be discussing suicide and depression in depth

Okay, so as part of my book club that I created with Tiana (The Book Raven), we are each writing a blog post about suicide and depression as that is what we are focusing on for this month.

I want to say that I am in no way an expert when talking about suicide and depression. I can only speak from my own individual experiences and perspective. I, myself, have only felt depressed at one point in my life, but it never got far, and I pulled myself out of that state. I think it was kind of a phase thing where nothing really felt right anymore, and I became very bored and disinterested in all the things I loved doing. But once I realised that I’d been feeling down for way too long to be normal – I reached out to my dad and once I told someone it felt like a weight was lifted and I slowly came back to normal. But I also think that blogging might have helped as well, as I started my blog a little after that experience.

But that wasn’t my first experience with depression, as I had a friend that fell victim to that illness long before me.

It started all the way back in primary school. Year 6. My friend – Danika – who I wasn’t that close with at the time, was suffering from depression; she has inherited the illness from her mother. I remember the day I came to school, and these two girls were freaking out about something. So, obviously, being a curious twelve-year-old I asked them what they were talking about. They said that they were worried about Danika, and then they went to ask her little sister something. Apparently she’d been talking about cutting herself the day before, and thats what she’d done when she went home.

At the time I didn’t even know what cutting – or even self-harm – was. I was only vaguely familiar with what depression was.

After the two girls discovered that she had in fact self-harmed, they ran to tell everyone. And by the time Danika arrived at school? Everyone knew. I don’t really remember exactly what happened after that. I know the teachers talked to the girls that had spread it, and then talked to our whole year about what had happened. After that – for a while anyway – everyone looked out for Danika, and everyone wanted to sit with her. I didn’t do any of that, because I knew that if I were her, I wouldn’t want to be smothered with people always trying to talk to me.

I think a couple months later – maybe five? – long after everything had settled down I started to become friends with Danika. It’s kind of ironic really, because our mums were friends, and they introduced us her first day, yet we had never really connected. Then a couple months later we became friends anyway.

She told me lots of things – like why she cuts and how its hard not to – and honestly, little me didn’t fully understand what it all meant, but I listened anyway. I remember she showed me the cuts on her leg and I just didn’t really know why? But I think the reason we were such great friends is because I had a different reaction to most people.

When most people found out she was cutting again they’d get really mad and upset and they’d tell her she had to stop – like it was that easy. I, on the other hand, never said that. I cared, but I also knew that getting mad wasn’t going to do anyone any good. So instead, I listened, and I understood, and I tried to help as best I could, without making it seem like I was always disappointed in her for what she’d done.

The next year we were put into the same class for basically all our classes. And we became even better friends with many good times. Everything seemed to be going better, she didn’t seem that sad at all anymore – even though I knew that something like that wouldn’t just go away.  Later, during that same year, I moved cities, and so I couldn’t look out for her so much anymore.

But only last year, after a lot of drama went down at her school where she was basically being attacked on the daily, she attempted suicide. I remember finding out from someone else that morning, and everyone was freaking out. Her little sister had found her – luckily in time – and she was rushed to the hospital. And then, a little later, Danika told me. It upset me to hear that I could have lost my best friend, but I again didn’t want to be mad at her like everyone else, so I told her that I’m always here, even if its not in person.

The worst thing about that was what people said. One girl I know said that she should have just died, and that she deserved it. Which really, no matter how mean or bad someone is, no one deserves to die, especially not like that.

She’s better now, at the moment anyway. But she’s had her struggles, and I only wish that I could have been there for her. That I should have been there for her. But I couldn’t be.

I believe she’s had a councillor for a while or at some points. I think she might have had counselling on and off over the years. And she’s talked to school councillors too, so she’s doing well, and she’s seeking help.

Danika is strong though. She’s still here, and from what I can tell, she seems really happy too. She’s still here, living, breathing. And that in itself is a victory. It’s shows how strong she has become. And I’m so proud of her for that.

talk later,

Indy xx

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Q and A #2

This my little Q and A to celebrate the fact that my blog has officially reached 200 followers! It’s honestly insane to think that anyone would want to read the nonsense sentences that I string together and publish on this blog.

But anyway, let’s move on now, and start with the questions…

Who’s your role model in life?

(ITSSIMPLYMEJASMINE)

Right now, my role model and inspiration to work hard on my blog and online presence is Arden Rose. I love her videos, and every time I watch one I get really inspired to get up and actually get something done. She’s really motivating and I really love her channel.

What is your favourite ice cream flavour?

(ADVENTURINGGIRL)

This is a really hard question because I love ice cream! And I go to many different ice cream places frequently because that’s how much I love my ice cream. So, because I could never choose just one, I’m going to name my top three. Ferrero rocher, salted caramel, and peanut butter. They are all so delicious!

What is the first thing you look at on your phone when you wake up?

(ANNIE EARNSHAW)

I know the first thing I do on my phone is definitely check my notifications. So usually I’ll be opening snapchat streaks and replying to comments on my blog and that sort of stuff, but obviously the types of notifications will vary from day to day. But after I’ve done that – depending on what I have on that day – I might check my Instagram and twitter feed, but that’s only if I don’t have to get ready for school.

Writing or reading?

(GRACIE CHICK)

As a blogger and a total bookworm I feel really torn having to answer this question. I mean, don’t they come hand in hand? Like exercise and a good diet? You need both to be optimally happy. …but if I have to choose, I’d probably choose reading. Because I feel like you can gain a lot more from reading what others have to say the just writing from your own perspective.

Favourite song?

(ASH)

This has to be the hardest question to answer. How can you ever choose just one song? I’m going to go with a sporadic decision for this one, because I have so many old favourites, so I think I’m going to say one I just started listening to the other day after I watched the music video for the first time. It’s called Got Love by Thundamentals and whenever I listen to it, it just makes me really happy. I also find it kind of hilarious how it’s hip-hop music or whatever but they’re seeing about being happy.

What made you start your blog?

(VASITHA)

I’ve actually answered this question before in my first Q and A, so feel free to check it out here.

What is your pet peeve?

(RYRY’S AVALANCHE OF THOUGHTS)

You do not want want me to get started on all the things that annoy me. But if I have to choose one, I’m going to go with a very specific example. It’s kind of hard to explain but basically, where my bed is, next to it there is a door that leads to my sister’s room, and we have a blind that is pulled down because the door is glass. But at night, when I’m trying to sleep, she leaves the light on, and so then this tiny beam of light shines RIGHT into my eyes. And then, I have to get up to turn it off, which means I have to pull my bedside table away from the door (because we don’t actually use the door to walk through) and open it, then climb into her room to turn it off. And by then, I’m wide awake.

 

And those are all the questions you guys asked me!

(Also. I’ve decided to now only use images that I have taken for my headers, so please tell me what you think?)

talk later,

Indy xx

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